Regret

So as things often happen, it's funny, or should I say, miraculous, to see our God at work.

I have to admit, I did not listen to him calling me, more like beckoning me tonight. And I just had to write about it, because the guilt from not following his will, has been all that I could think about the past 2 hours.

So the events leading up to this----it's been a normal Wednesday usual crazy Wednesday! My older daughter, Katie, ended up having strep throat, and then after taking Lex and Buddy to the doctors too, we found out they both had ear infections!!

So shortly after 7 p.m., I ended up on the CVS in Hagerstown, that is right in Hagerstown on Cannon Ave. This CVS is not the one I normally go to, but it is the most convenient for us when going straight home. 

So this particular CVS pharmacy was super busy at 7 p.m., and after telling the cashier my name, she informed me she had to mix up the meds, so I would have to wait a few minutes.

As I'm standing there waiting, I heard different customers speaking with the cashiers, not really paying any attention to their conversations. I noticed this younger woman walk up to the register, she stated her birthday 5-4-1991, and she immediately had my attention. 

May 4th is Jayses' angel-iversary date. Something in me, when I heard her date of birth, wanted to give her a great big hug. Something in me wanted to tell her it was going to be ok. I didn't hear anything in her voice that conveyed to me that she was in distress, or angry, but I felt a need to comfort her.

She was on the phone, and I was intimidated. And I didn't take God's guiding hand, leading me to reach out to this girl. After she got her prescription, she quickly walked out of CVS. As I was standing there waiting for Lex and Buddys meds, there she went, and I knew I missed my chance.

 

Anyway, the bottom line and entire point to this post, is that you have to have faith. Even when things seem crazy, and rejection is staring you in your face; when the sky is dark, and no end is in sight--we have to have faith--this is all bigger than us. We are all little pieces of this ridiculously large puzzle, coming together to create something beautiful.

So if you, reading this, are Jessica B. with the date of birth 5/4/91--know that you are not alone. That you are loved, and that God hasn't given up on you ;)